| | this is one of those weird limbo times in my life. my job AND my lease are both about to run out. this means, if i don't get my butt into serious gear soon, i'm not going to have income or a place to live.
it totally feels like catch-22. i don't know where i should live if i don't know where i'll be working. yet, i have no idea where/what i want my job to be. it's so frustrating i just want to curl up in a ball and avoid it altogether.
i've found a couple of viable places on craigslist, but i can't decide if i want to stay in VA or move back into DC. i think i might want to stay in arlington. i rather enjoy the commute, even if it's 40+ minutes and i curse every single hill on the ride home. i think what i really want to do is buy and house and settle down. but clearly, that's out of the question at the moment.
something else that's been bothering me. i care too much what my parents think. like, right now, i'm considering a room in an apartment with 2 guys. me and two guys. and i think my mom would have an aneurysm if she knew. fuck them. i'm old enough to make decisions by myself. but at the same time, i still value their opinions and know that they care a lot about me and my well-being. hence the hesitation.
it's so fucking tiring, you know? but instead of talking it out, i shut down. i hide it all inside. and suffer alone.
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| | Posted 7/8/2009 11:31 PM - 5 Views - 2 eProps - 2 comments
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